GIMME GIMME THAT HIGH 5!

I believe that everyone have their own place in this world. No matter where you live, be it in the cave, on the mountain or even in a mansion that’s your place in the world. People move at different speed. People who share the same ambition, the same hope and dreams share the same direction, but they walk different path. With the rest 211 people, I share the same direction as them, but unfortunately the path I go is different. Be it a longer path, be it a tougher path I’ll lump with it. However, I need assurance. I need God to tell me if I’m sincere, patient and strong things would turn around. I don’t ask to be on top of the wheel, I don’t ask to be floating on air or on water. As long as I’m able to make it to the water surface, enough for me to breathe, enough for me to swim my way towards the finish line, I would be more than grateful. One setback doesn’t mean you’re done with. You can still fight but you need a stronger weapon, a strategy and lots and lots of blessing. For whatever that have happen last few days, I have not lost myself. I still know who I am, I still know I’m capable, but I need recovery. The world have not ended, it may have just started. I don’t know. But hey, I’m smiling. I’m thankful. I’m still strong. Alhamdulillah.

P\S : Call it narcissism, but I still love myself.
Little Voice Inside: I promise I’ll be gentle *guilty*

THE CHOSEN ONE

Hello.

I'm back. You will never believe what had happened to me last few days. However, since it's a bit personal, I have to keep it to myself. When the transition state is over, maybe I'll let the whole world knows. Let it be an example or moral value. (can't think of the right words). Hope I'm the last person to ever have to face this. It's heavy, seriously. For some who's pretty cheerful and strong, the world collapses and turned over. I always believe that God is loving and caring, He wouldn't make me go through all this if He thinks I'm not capable. For whatever that had happened and the things that will happen in the future, I have to prepare myself in all aspects. I belong here, I've worked hard to be at this level and I would do just about anything to make everything alright again.

Just want to say thank you to all this wonderful people who had cheered me up, supported me and make me less you-know-what; Ameerah, Kuya, Ana, Kina, Amar, Kak Yasmin, Kak Yana, Meeza, Putri, Piqa, Hafsah, Kak Wani, Nad and others. Please pray for me, pray for my 'recovery' and may God bless you all.

OH SO RANDOM

I feel so Mr. Bean today!

ATYPICAL THURSDAY

Hello.

Had a really bad time this morning. Problems. Why do people think that pefection symbolises professionalism? And now I know why giving is always harder than taking. What's the purpose of having a charity event when the process of giving feels like swimming in barriers. Instead of making business easier, you chose to throw us in a deeper shit. Yeah, we are cool, we know what patience means. However, one thing needs to come first before levels, barriers, pathways and formalities. It's the kids! We are here trying to make a difference in their lives. So, stop bullshitting and let us do our work.

Due to all the mayhem, my heart rate increased tremendously. I became so nervous and annoyed that I totally screwed up my understanding during physiology tutorial. No biggie, I know. But, I'm not smart like everyone else, you see? So, it's true, the more you know things, the more ignorant you feel. However, I feel so ignorant because I don't know as much as everyone else.

Entrepreneurship day! Fun, fun,fun. Everyone's so zest up! No one in my team wanted to change shift, so I only managed to do small things like wash the blender. LOL. Our ice blended drinks we're lovely. Before 5 pm, we managed to sell more than 200 drinks! At the end, there were an ice fight. I don't know who started it, but someone attacked me. So I showed no mercy. Right Ieka? So that spontaneous event is called "medical students protraying 'civilisation' ".

Last thing. I don't want to score for exams. I won't expect A or even viva distinction. I only want to know things better. I want a long term effect. Again, why did we get 4.0 for our foundation? Because we believe it was possible. I believe that I can do more than just passing the exams even though I'm starting to think I have Huntington's disease. God save me. I'll fight every barrier but please promise me silver linings at the end.

THE WALL SCREAMS MY NAME!

I was in the library in the evening. I was just too sleepy and I wanted to rest my head on the desk. While on that, I saw a writing on the wall which gave me goosebumps for a few minutes. On the wall I saw this! "this is for Aina, nothing ventured, nothing gained!". Obviously it's not for me because no one knows how much I love sleeping in the library. Maybe I don't spend the whole time sleeping, I do other things too. Get the picture? no? *sigh*

But it's true!

NOTHING VENTURED, NOTHING GAINED!

Some part of the library has turned into 'the wall of shame' or 'the wall of dilemma'. The wall is a therapist, at your service.

P|S > excuse the title, it's just me being hyperbolical like every other day.

THRILLER

Hello.

Something inside has grown. A surge of excitation. And I never thought this would (ever) happen (again). However, by looking at the long term outcome, it feels pretty impossible.Sometimes you want things to slow down and sometimes you want things to speed up. SABAR PEREMPUAN. The day will come. Don't let the thrill drift away.

I DON'T USUALLY DANCE

I miss the "Fake Tales of San Francisco" moments. In C101, Hazwa and I danced to it while Hana recorded us. It was bloody funny and priceless! Due to over excitation, I accidentally fell and bump my head on Hazwa's bed. Priceless. Period.

I miss making videos now that everyone else is everywhere else.

Arctic monkeys, I love.

I MISS MATH EQUATIONS

Adam introduced me to an equation.

Studying = student + dying

This equation deserves an award on its own.

I'm so liking this post. Bak kata Sykin "Sykin likes this post".

LIFE IS NOT AN EXPERIMENT

I have a mission, I need to kill all those negative hypothesis so that people after me won't live by bullshit they hear. And even if these bullshit is the reality, I have to break that reality. My ears were filled with negativity last night. It's not something I want to hear at times like this. I'm trying to pick myself up. Although I don't know where to start, but I know I could at least work bloody hard to shut you up and kill all your hypothesis. After all, it's you speaking hypothetically.